Being with Samsul Anam has been quite the roller coaster ride.
We have been through the happy times and still are but just a little bit more on the downside.
All is not rosy has ended and thank goodness he brought me back to earth.
Hearts are no longer flying around but my heart still flutter each time he texts, calls, etc.

I miss him dearly that sometimes I cry just thinking about when I will be with him.

Nobody said that long distance is easy.
I know for sure is that this is only the beginning.
I have made my decision to be with him after we are married.

Yes, moving in with him in Indonesia.

He has agreed that we will stay in Bali where there is still network for videocalls that I can make whenever I miss my family and friends.

Ultimately, I just want a simple life.

I am effing tired of the rat race that I have to face in Singapore.

I want life like how I did growing up - play freely, neighbours caring for each other, door to door food selling (oh the nasi lemak was so good).. Good old days that Singapore has lost. Now everything is small, cramp, 3 to 5 times more expensive. For example flats now are freaking small in Singapore.

I was more assured that I want to leave Singapore when I saw how free living in a village is. Yes, nothing luxurious and/or convenience. But the peace you get is priceless.

Why are people chasing for material shit in Singapore?
What do we get from there?
Tonnes of money, wealth, status, drive a BMW, stay in a condo?
None of those give satisfaction nor inner peace.
A car in Singapore is a freaking liability.
A condo is as big as a flat in Singapore.
Wealth and status will attract you insincere people.

Am I latching on my boyfriend for happiness because he has what I want? No.
I love him for who he is.

I have been a lover of simplicity and non-follower of trends.

Singapore cannot offer me that.

Happy 52nd Birthday, Singapore.
I hope Singapore can maju in many good ways in years to come.

Salud!