First and yet non-virgin post

First and yet non-virgin post.

Indeed.

The blog address remains the same, only the contents have been reset back to square one. Reformatted. Restart. A new phase in life where bygone be bygone, adios to old sad negative rants and welcome a new breath of fresh positive, or maybe trying to be, posts.

No more whining, hopefully.
No more bitching, from a lady, I'll try.
Only about facts of life observed through these still clouded lenses and sight. Well my spectacles lenses are covered with my fingerprints now.

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Lenses, wiped.

And why focus on inner peace? Inner peace in my own definition is the calmness of your heart and soul. The kind that quietly shouts happiness reflected in your eyes, influential and contagious to people around you. The kind that sparks laughter in sadness and pain and gives joy when you need love the most.

Cheem eh?

It is indescribable. You just feel it. You will also feel that you are close to Allah. You don't feel alone and you do not need anything worldly because Allah is all you need.

Finding inner peace was forgotten after I started working in my current job. Life got a tad haywire. I went to Mount Kinabalu to getaway and try something different. Definitely felt peaceful. You are surrounded by nature but I was still not satisfied. That's not a good sign but I did not take heed. Until my really good friend decided to leave Singapore on search of inner peace.

That got me thinking and just by thinking, it felt right. Allah moved my heart.

As I am writing this, I am observing my fast and watching World Cup 2014 in a couple of hours. Blessed I am to be reflecting and coming to a realization this wonderful holy month. Terawih on the first week of Ramadhan did not feel enough. I started to feel emotional and confused. It was a bad sign. I decided to go to Al-Falah mosque for my break fast and terawih, I felt a little calm. Allah opened my heart. I started reading the Al-Quran out loud. There I was starting to feel peaceful.

This will be a new journey for me.
Will I be able to pace myself to sustain looking for inner peace?
Will I be astray by the whispers of syaitan?

Hope the posts will be a reminder to me.

#blessed I feel, #blessed I am

Ahmar