Oh my life is in such entangled distortion right now. Once again, I feel very lost. No direction of my next step. I don't seem to be able to prioritize my own needs and wants. I still got to work on my Discipline Department.

I drag to work in the morning. I missed my subuh, again. I am fasting today, insya-Allah. I feel sucky. I feel so stress. My head hurts.

My will power has gone down the drain since I started working. I guess it must be the influence around me and the change in my life. Of course, my oh-so-needed to change myself. Now that I've changed, I am whining. It has been a very very good change. Every change have some compromising.

I drag to work in the morning. I missed my subuh, again. I am fasting today, insya-Allah. I feel sucky. I feel so stress. My head hurts.

Now I do not know what I want or need. Cause it's all jumbled up like broken pieces of jigsaw puzzle. Frustrating that I can put any kind of puzzle together but not my life. It has not fallen apart. It's just that my scales are tilted. Such a typical libran. With no strong ground, I'm pretty easily influenced of what others are doing.

I drag to work in the morning. I missed my subuh, again. I am fasting today, insya-Allah. I feel sucky. I feel so stress. My head hurts.

Recently, I watched Harriet The Spy from HBO. The movie made me want to write. I watched Julie & Julia, and I want to start cooking but only very few dishes that I have tried. I see my good friend in chiffon tops, I want to start wearing chiffon-material tops. *a big sigh*

I drag to work in the morning. I missed my subuh, again. I am fasting today, insya-Allah. I feel sucky. I feel so stress. My head hurts.

Ramadhan come quick. I need that month to figure my life out.

ahmar