Ages

Ahhhh.. Duo de rosario con antonio carmona.. La cancion es El Sitio De Mi Recreo.. That song has been my lullaby to sooth my uneasy heart. That song made me miss many people, loads. Yeah, I'm playing the song over and over again.. so soothing..

Oh well.. It has been ages since I posted something here. I am trying not to post anything online now but I guess no harm once in a while.

Guess what I did not attend two of my friends' events again. I realized that either I forget these events or I choose not to go. I hate myself for a long time now. But I ain't changing meself.

I went on a date, well supposedly hang out, last Saturday. It made me realized that I really do not want to settle down or tied down. Sticking to the same person makes me feel agitated and pissed, especially if that someone is bloody clingy. But I shouldn't be worrying. I never give him hope. I have made it clear. NO! *he is not the one*

another one on my plate.. my sister is giving the whole family another problem again.. its not even a challenge anymore.. a problem.. yes, that negative.. honestly, she is such a bimbo.. she has no stand for herself, don't even know what she wanna do, just go with the flow without thinking, can't even study well.. she can only dance and make her face up.. only bimbos do that.. im so pissed.. i feel like demanding everything that ive spent on her.. those money spent on her to make her happy and give the things i can never have.. and well, thats wat she wants.. haiz.. urgh! i do not need or deserve this, bitch!

hate you so much now.. i give up on you..

ahmar